God,
Please forgive me of my selfish, stubborn heart.
I don't know why exactly I said and did the things I did tonight at work, but now my sinfulness replays in my head and I feel neither love or peace toward anyone.
I am terrified of losing my job in the new year, and I don't know who to trust anymore...including myself. I don't like this paranoia that's beginning to settle into my head!
Why is it so hard for me to surrender to You??!
I need Your help, please.
I fought so hard today. I tried so hard to be a model employee and be everything to everyone. I know I failed and I fear I will always come up just short enough that they'll want to get rid of me.
I don't want to lose this good-paying job with benefits; but I am so unhappy and don't know how to be a brighter, happier person!