May God watch over your child and help him find the desire for sobriety and change. I pray that you find the strength to take care of your health. I am also the mom that has been down that road of worry and stress with this disease. I won't go into details, I will just say that all that you can do is love him, guide him, give him resources and Pray a lot. There are government resources out there that are financially helpful, when he is ready. Faith based programs are amazing. I will keep you and your child in my prayers, as I pray for all walking through addiction. Stay strong and take care of you, because you can't help him if you are not well. May God bless you with healing and your child with the readiness to ask for help