At the age of 23 I had no grandparents left and lost my mom at 31. I feel like I understand death more than anything else. I lost 4 sets of Aunt/Uncles and then 2 brothers, 2 boyfriends and my dad. That is just family. What I have learned is that each one has a place in my heart and they are never really gone. When something triggers a memory I feel like they are there with me for a moment. I love the song by REO Speedwagon "Here with Me!" because even if they are not here. They are still forever in my heart. No one is really dead until their life is not remembered any more. On the night my oldest brother died he came to me that night and told me he was okay. Believe that your heart is large enough to hold a piece of everyone you want.