I know you're there. I wouldn't have gotten this far if you weren't. How do I keep doing this? It’s got to stop. It's time that I have some peace. I have been walking in the likes of Jesus to the best of my human soul. Self-will is something I don't want anymore. Take it back. If I am to get to the place you have reserved for me, then I need to release the pain and suffering that I hold onto. It keeps me in the devils foothold away from love, joy, and contentment. I have no path, no focus, no direction yet you've blessed me with the gift to bestow the encouragement to others so that they find theirs. How do I give away what I don't have? Its not supposed to work that way! But I do it anyway. With a heart of service and with no judgement. I love unconditionally, forgive freely, accept people right where they're at and give the gift of hope everyday. Its who I am meant to be. So why is there such an emptiness me? I will continue to be who I am, with servitude. I have nothing left to loose but the entry into your kingdom. So I will keep my faith and trust that there is something better waiting for me.