God I am thankful for my health, my children's health and their unconditional love for me. I am thankful for help from my loved ones. I do my best to treat others the way that I want to be treated. I know that I have many imperfections but I would like to be a better person for me and my children by changing what I am able to and by making better choices. I also know that changes don't happen overnight, yet I don't know where to begin. I've learned not to trust anyone in life and that the people I have trusted entirely were loved ones who have long passed on. I've come along way and I don't know where to get the help that I need so I can build myself and believe in me. My intentions aren't good enough to keep me on a positive path when I get discouraged. I want to trust in you but it's not easy-I believe in you but the pain that I stuffed away for years is hard to see through and give me something to look forward to. Please show me signs to help me along and put good people in my path. I want to break the dysfunctional cycle that I grew up with so I can give my all to my kids and follow thru with my dreams to the best of my ability. Time to throw out the garbage and learn to cope so Im not self-involved and self medicating. I just want to feel loved and I need some encouragement. Please hear me, in Jesus name Amen