Still not pregnant, my heart is heavy, I cry all the time, when is it my turn? I know life is not fair but we have so much love to give and want a baby so badly and its just not happening. I thought I found peace about it but everytime someone announces they are pregnant my heart breaks that much more, even though I am happy for them I suffer just the same. We have made the decision to foster to adopt. our first information orientation is today. Please God find it in your heart to give us a baby to love in what ever way you deem nessasary. I wil never give up on your love and i know you have a plan for me. I just wish I could understand why I can't be the momma I so long to be.. A