I need some help again. I would appreciate it if someone would pray for me a little. Im about out of hope, permanently. Its supposed to be this thing that springs eternal, it gives you the ability to trudge on through difficulties and heartbreaks, but this time its become to much for me. I feel like Im wading through quicksand. I feel like life is pointless sometimes. I can feel myself changing. I can see myself becoming bitter from all the heartbreak. I dont want to be a mean person but I can feel myself metathesizing to this cancerous emotion of hopelessness. I know it springs from putting to much faith in the men I have dated. I was brought up to think people were fundamentally good and they never hurt one another on purpose, only accident. But as I am growing older I have come to realize its often the opposite, and I cant seem to grow out of the culture shock. Maybe this all sounds trite. I dont know.. but Im having an extreamly hard time thinking of a reason to stay in a world where everyone lies all the time, and especially to people who they say are so important to them. The problem is my idealism is going to kill me. Please pray for me. I hope your all doing well. Thank you.