4/12/2012

Still need help with psychological and physical hurdles in life. I also need prayers for me to keep myself organized and finish out this current semester strong. I have several projects and assignments coming together at once. This, combined with my part-time job, is driving me up the wall.

Most importantly, I need God to help me overcome the fears and anxieties I've developed in the past year or so. It seems like all my weaknesses and pressure points are being leveraged at once, from multiple directions and people.

I am a patient and calm person. I am usually even brave up to a point, but I am really having to force myself to go to work and sometimes to even get up each day for school. There have been some days where I've literally wanted to physically harm my boss(es) recently.

Due to my often conflicting school and work schedules, I am often fatigued (and I mean that in the military sense) by the time Friday rolls around.

As a male, it's getting harder for me to supress my emotions in certain situations as well, particularly at work. This is starting to affect my work quality, more in school than at my workplace.

I have also fallen off my excercise routine due to my erratic schedule, which leaves me with one less place to blow off my steam.

All my previous methods to deal with these issues JUST ARENT WORKING or have PLATEAUED IN EFFECTIVENESS!! As you can tell, my anger control/temper is being stressed too. :(

I can't tell if it's because I know more about the dangers of daily life, the fact that I realized I will have to start job-hunting next year, the fact that I have to drive in the vicinity of D.C., or if I just don't have enough other things to do to push these fears out of my mind.

Please pray for me. I' starting to question my sanity. I hope the other people out there aren't being pressed as hard as I am.