Dear God, we BOTH know I've been avoiding Marcus; but I thank You for keeping me blessed with busy-ness, so I wouldn't really have time to dwell and obsess.
I'm at a point where I KNOW I deserve someone who's going to love me back, and respect and desire me for the woman I am right now, vs. some fantasy woman that I will NEVER be. And though it greatly saddens me, I know that Marcus is NOT that man!
Please help me be a good friend to him, without being hurtful to myself.
I need help--I still can't find the right balance of giving him what he wants without completely denying myself of the things I want...friendship should be about give and take. I've been the giver for awhile now, and I need a break!!
I'm not going to ask You to change Marcus' heart anymore. I'm asking You to change mine.