Dear God,
Thank you for every single moment of every single day!
I am blessed to have an amazing family who loves me! Because of You, I have a safe, warm home and plenty of food to eat. Every day I am reminded of Your generosity and kindness in my life, and I can barely say thank you enough!
My heart is heavy, Lord. After all this time, and after all these prayers, I still lust for Marcus in my heart. I am lonely and depressed when I don't see him--it'll be 3 mos. next week.
Help me move forward, Jesus, because I don't want to hurt anymore. I am making myself miserable loving someone who does NOT want to love me back! You have already removed him (physically) from my life, so please remove him from my heart. He doesn't even text me back anymore.
In Your infinite Wisdom, please move me to the next phase of my life. I need direction--and distraction.
Help me to forgive Marcus, and myself...because I want to hate him, and all of this pain, but it's just not in my heart to be angry or to hate him.
In the Name of Your Son, Jesus, I pray.
Amen.