I have been trying to get back to church I know that it is something that I need to do. But my last church really hurt me, I was married to the preachers son, when we were seperating everyone gossiped so much about me and said so many things that were untrue, the preacher my ex father inlaw preached the last sermon that I ever heard and mentioned very personal thing that I had spoken to my still husband at the time, he didn't use my name...but I knew and so did everyone else that he was talking about me...I love my church family very much and I thought the world of my old inlaws...but was hurt so deeply by them all that I haven't been able to try to find a church family since. Rumors hurt and everyone of the members turned on me...just because he and I were getting divorced. He was a terrible man! That is all that I will say about that... Anyways I just need God so much and I need help...I need loving people in my life but I am afraid! So I need God to guide me to the right place....