...I admit I am a sinner and I have heard and know that you said, love your enemies, do good to those who hate you but I am sorry its really hard. I forgive them already deep in my heart but I just can't continue the time when we were good before and i just can't forget what they did to me. Please help me enlighten my heart and mind to be all well and please touch their hearts and make them better. All this I ask to you Lord God and friends. Thank you...