I am an addict. I've been to four rehabilitations. I am sober now for two months. I relapsed after my last rehabilitation after five and a half months sober. I have two beautiful children (2 and 5) of whom I only want to make proud and be the mother they so deserve. My addiction began after my divorce of 10 years. I take responsibility for all of my wrongs. The problem is, I can't find it in me to forgive myself. I've been trying to do the right thing and keep running into obstacles. I'm so frustrated and depressed and have prayed to God to help me. I am filing for bankruptcy and cannot find a job. The power of prayer is strong. I still have Faith because without that I'd have nothing. Please pray for me to find the right way, not the way to the bottle.