Hello, I lost my grandma 4 months ago. She raised me and though I know she had a good and long life, I am struggling so much with this. I feel like she is the only person in this world that will ever love me the right way and not just use me. I just need some strength to keep going in my life. I don't find joy in things any more and I'm in pain a lot of the time. I am on antidepressants, but I feel that my spirit is suffering because of this loss. I miss her everyday and I know she would want me to be happy. Please Lord give me strength. Thank you for your prayers.