Please help me stop my spending addiction and please forgive me for the spending I've already done. Please help me to sell items on Ebay and get some guitar students to help make up for what I have spent so my family does not suffer for my mistakes.

Also, please ease the suffering I feel over the loss of my husband that instigated the spending addiction to begin with. Help me to let go of the hurt and the anger of what he and his mistress did to me. Help me to rid my heart of the hate and resentment so that my love will not be overshadowed and I can get closer to you again.