I was hoping I would be able to post good news someday but it seems things arent working for him and hes looking for a place to live. Im not sure if I have the energy to keep fighting his mental health issues,..my heart says if I dont then I appear as if I dont love him anymore which is as far from the truth as possible. I still love HIM, but not what hes let his depression turn him into and what it has done to us as a family. Everyone is saying to just let him go and let him figure it out. I guess Im scared more than anything,..but I need to think about my son. That was why he came home before the holidays was to try and repair the damage already done. If anything it has gotten worse and all he can do is blame me. Why would someone want to feel like he does everyday??? If most people knew they could take a pill and chat awhile to feel better --most people would??? I am so angry for him letting this happen, yet so tired from trying to stop it,....he says it all me. He didnt even acknowledge his daughters graduation or the younger ones birthday,...thats normal. I am at a loss but it looks like Ill be figuring it out all alone,...God please once again help me just get through each day one breath at a time. Help me in keeping or finding a secure job so I dont need to be dependent--I just ask I have enough to cover all my bills and put food on the table. Thank you for the blessings I have already received,....