dear God, I find myself deep in a mixture of emotions. i find myself angry one minute, then sad the next, then longing. I found myself asking you how dare you not allow me to experience sharing my life with someone when there are so many people out here who are taking advantage of their marriages and relationships by cheating, when all i want is to share my life with someone. Lord, i am upset because outside forces have caused a rift in my relationship again....usually, when it has hit this point, i would have given up on the relationship and let go...of course i would be hurt, but i would let go, but father, this time is different. lord, i don't want to go against your will, so i ask you to show me your will. is it your will for me to grow old and be lonely and alone? lord, i love my loved one, and i dont know how else to put it. am i angry at him? yes. do i miss him? definitely. but i don't want to repeat the past...but in the same token, my heart longs for him...i want to call him, but i am so mad at him for disappointing me til i cant. i know we are human and make mistakes, but what if i over reacted? lord, forgive me for my part in the argument that has separated us. lord, we both said and did things via anger, and i want it to be settled, i want my loved one in my life. i want to move beyond this. i want to hear his voice, see his handsome face, hold his hands...i dont wish to fight anymore. lord, it is taking a toll on me, and all i want to do is move on from this. lord please, remove all outside forces, and mend our hearts lord. i love him, lord, i dont want to fight with him again. Lord, i asked you for what your will is and i said im gonna let your will be done, so please father, hear my prayers, and comfort me while you do your will. calm my emotions and ease my longing for him so that you can do your will. Lord when this is over, father, please don't let me and my loved one fight like this ever again. let our relationship be calm smooth and between me, him and you. lord move all negative forces, for they are busy bodies and wish to see us both unhappy. i ask of you in Jesus name, by the blood of Jesus amen. plz pray with me...