Heavenly father, i need to hear from you....i don't feel like my prayers are reaching heaven...i don't know if i am good enough to call on you, but father, i need to hear from you....i need you...i trust you, and i need to know your will....i keep thinking you are responding to me, but i am unaware of it is me just telling myself what i want to hear, or if it is you actually speaking...when i get answers after i pray, i feel better, but then i seem to think, now wait, is that you lord, or am i mistakenly answering myself(lol)...but father, seriously, i need to hear from you,. in my heart, i feel things will heal, things will be fine, but i need to hear from you lord..i feel in my heart that i must let your will be done, but God, i need to know your will. i don't believe it when people say God doesn't expose his will to you, i think that if you ask, you see it....you receive it...Lord, i need to know your will...i can't pray anymore and say please let things be okay, because i don't know if it is in your will, but, i don't fully know that it isn't in your will for things not to be okay...maybe this happened so you can begin answering my many prayers launched before this one...I will be still, but will continue to pray, for God, I love this man and am so sick of outside people and their malicious rumors and foolishness. Lord, deep in my heart (not the superficial stuff we think we feel, but for real) i know what i am feeling, and i can oddly feel the waves of the same love from him; but just as I feel them, satan can see them and knows what I have asked for and what he has asked for. Lord, i am asking you to remove all these people seeking nothing but destruction and lust and evil...and lord, help me to hear you father..i dont need to hear myself psyching myself up only to be disappointed again....lord please stop the same thing from happening...please lord, intervene....show me your will, show me your way....amen