I asking for God to hold me and keep my mind. I am so hurt by what my husband is doing. I resnt him and I want my three years back. Everything I've done was for us and then he turns and backstap me in the most painful way. I am trying so hard to remain calm, but to see him walk around and sleep good at night while the one you say you love suffers in pain is so hurtful to me. I don't want what he has done to me to change, but I fear it has. I am so angry and I can't stop crying. I can't eat or sleep. Pray for me please I just need this pain to pass over. I am such a good person and I just don't understand why the pain?