I am trying so hard to pay bills, keep this house, work this contract job, pray they make me permanent, deal w/ my ex who is not doing what he is suppose to and agreeded to, keep my sons up who are working and helping to keep us afloat, deal with my daughter who is underworking and needs help with her and son, im tired, im crying all the time and just want to run. I wont run i just feel so tired and lost.