hope, i can learn how to control myself from pleasure of the flesh or from the worldly activities... so i will not hesitate to come with HIM b'coz of a guilty and a condemned feeling.. i wasn't able to call HIM everyday for the unknown reason.. i, myself, don't know why.. it is me who chose it.. but i want to come back with HIM right now... i also want to learn how to forgive even it cause me a severe damage in my personality and in my future.. i'm so affected by this and it can controls my life and i don't know why.. i just want to follow HIM and to do what HE wants me to do and to be, but this reasons prevent me to be a good child of GOD.. that's all thanks...