i have been having a very tough time accepting grace and praying, i feel very prideful and angry when i should be happy for all the wonderful things i have been given. I have been still living by some kind of law of stone, and i feel self righteous, i aplogize, for sounding so grave, i have been very anxious and i know my self righteousness is not judge, i have been prayed for before, and i have been told god loves me in very profound ways by others though others. it has been tough, and i have been making it tough, i need to let go of my anxiety, and whatever pride or negativity that has been holding me, definetly to let go of the idolatrous lies. I dont know to pray for it exactly, hence help.