My life still hasn't had very many bright spots in it here recently. It seems that nothing I do is ever right. Everything seems to be going wrong. I still hate the fact that I messed up so long ago. I can't help but to believe that the person that I hurt still has feelings for me and is only being convinced not to communicate with me because someone is holding something over his head. I am pretty sure that is the case. I would like to request that everyone please pray in agreement with me for God to help lead us back to one another. I know in my heart that would be the best thing. I hope and pray that is also Gods will. For so long now my faith has been dwindling because of the fact that my life is in such shambles. I gave it over to God but when it seems that nothing is working out for the good, like most humans, I take it back. I just don't know what to do anymore. I have gotten to the point recently that if things don't soon start looking up and going in a better direction than what they are now, I know that I am going to go in the complete opposite direction and then there will be no turning back because it will be a permanent conclusion.
I have begged and pleaded for God to help me but it just doesn't seem like it's happening. There isn't anything happy around me anymore.