I thought that I was doing better but then my feet get kicked right out from under me again. I watch as my now ex-husband prospers through his sin. I work so hard to live my belief as my life, but I am constantly punished. I feel so defeated. I am losing my house because of what he did. I am so tired of hurting, both physically and mentally. I just don't know why or what the point of being alive is anymore. I don't even know what I am asking prayer for. Just pray that I can keep going another day.