May God heal the pain I had from the past. I know past is past but still, it affects my present state. I want to enjoy Life but I'm having difficulty to achieve it. I think too much that decreases my self-esteem and self-confidence. I'm having a hard time thinking about my future, etc. I should have faith in God but sometimes, I can't avoid to think that he's mad at me for that greatest sin that I've done. Can he really forgive me? I should not doubt him for he is the God of forgiveness. I just can't handle it. :( I wish, I can live normally and have a happy Life. Please, do pray for me. :( I really pity myself.