Hey, my cousin is going on a mission trip next week which she's really excited about and she's really looking forward to it. So I ask you to pray for her safety and Gods blessing in that.

But, can you pray for me too? I don't know what I'm going to do when she's gone. My cousin is a massive role model in my life, she's the mother figure I've needed and I know that without her I'm going to be lonely too. I don't live with my mom, I live with my cousins. I just ask for strength.

One last thing, I feel like I'm falling away from God at the moment. I feel like I'm falling back into depression and self harm and I don't want to go back there. God's very quiet and I'm being easily led astray.