Dear Lord, it has come with a crushing reality that I have no friends. as much as I try to be nice and kind to people and I try to help people be better people I am always thrown mud in the face by the people that I trust most . the people whom I help and I do not want to have a hard heart dear lord, I do not want to come of mean and selfish as people that I see around but lord I have reached the last nerve, the last piece of mud has been thrown on my face and I cannot help but feel helpless and its unjust what they do to me. please lord, let my personality not change when I am this deeply hurt. yes I have done my own mistakes and I am not perfect but I try to be dear lord, to inch closer to be of likeness to your son but I keep being beat down and I am scared I will turn to be this bitter person, selfish and self centered. I pray for forgiveness for my numerous sins and acceptance of my own friendship lord. it just hurts lord. I pray for the sick, the hungry and the homeless right now especially with the cold. help them and protect them. amen