everyday gets harder... i know and love the Lord, i knwo what his word says and i have faith in him only...i feel lost, im waiting on instruction, im choosing to b happy in all situations, but i still fall flat on my face most of the time.. i desire to have his will and strenght in my life. people around me hurt and dissapoint me, i try and pretend i dont care or that it must b something in me that causes them to act this way.. my prayer is ..Lord carry me.. teach me your ways, allow me to b the light u speak of, change the desires of my heart to your disires, change my thoughts, my speach, my actions and reactions, help me correct the wrong inside of me..i want to b more like u in all i do. to be a better mother, daughter sister, wife friend and employee..Lord im not a spring chicken and yet i still dont know what it is that i should b when i grow up..show me the doors and windows i hear about, speak to my heart in a voice i know to b yours and not my own..help me not doubt and seek signs..give me the spritual gift of a pure heart so i may hear u say one day..."your a good and faithful servent" , "one after my own heart"..i desire to please u Lord Jesus, help me find my place...Amen