Please pray for me I am feeling so unloved right now feeling so rejected by my son and his family I feel so lonely trying to figure how to spend Christmas painting my bathroom something to keep my mind off of it I keep just crying what is wrong with me am I having a nervous breakdown I feel so so sad Dont want to do anything I know I have to pick myself up I feel my family is ashamed of me and I am just so bummed out I get up everyday do my daily readings but I just have such an emptiness in my heart Nothing seems right The family I thought was mine is always ashamed of me and think of me as their doormat who is always there if needed to step on But today i feel I have to much dirt on it and cannot hold anymore