I am a widower of 15 years. I am on SSDI and I can't even decorate my space at home. Please also pray for me that I don't spend Christmas alone as this is the time of the year that I get very depressed as I am bi-polar type 2. This time of the year is also sad to me as my wife and I would have celebrated our 25th wedding anniversary in 5 days. I still miss her as she has been my first love. I cry about every day when I think of how happy we were. So please pray for me.