I'm going through a battle that may define or break a personal project of 12 years. This project of mine is supposed to be finalized in four months, and I don't know if I should move forward or not. I've never been more confused in my life. I'm getting mixed messages on whether or not to continue or to peacefully depart. I've been hurting for the past couple of months with no answer. I hurt every night knowing there is a possibility that what I've been working on for possibly what consumed half my life may just end up as a final separate departure. I need nothing more than God's light to shine his answer directly and vividly on my face. I can't take hints, I need God's solid answer. Without the specification of what that project may be, I just love it with all of my heart and soul, and can't stand the idea that one day I may wake up alone without the peace of knowing that it is still there.
According to your will, Lord; and not according to mine. You, who IS the King of Kings, I need your guidance to the correct path, I can no longer do this on my own, but I ask you to step in and take over, for I no longer can move on my own given the growing blisters on my flesh...