okay i feel like i just wanna give up i cant get control of my life i cant beat my demons...i need as many prayers as i canget bc i am desperate for the Lord to save me and love me and change me....i feel like he just doesnt hear my prayers or just cant help me...but i know my Lord is stronger than anyone or anything so i know he can save me...but why cant i be healed???please pray that the Lord helps me and helps me change starting first thing tomorrow...help me feel strong to beat anything and every craving that comes towards me...Help me beat my addiction for good i have too much to lose i wanna make people proud and not dissapoint them...i wanna do really good in my life and help others to heal as well but i need to take care of myself before i can care for others i wanna be a role model for my boys not a failure...please pray that my addiction goes away for ever and doesnt try to deseve me anymore....i need to be stronger like i used to be i used to help so many others help me God to do it again!