Hey Abba Father...You know what is going on in my life..the power that I have felt since knowing You. will you please pray that my beloved Michael will come soon? and I pray that I will have the strength and the courage to go on with miscarriages and stillbirths. Please help me be the healthiest i can be, help me not lose the motivation of weight loss. Lord, I love You with every atom of my being. You, alone, are my refuge. Oh, Papa! every time i feel like giving up on Michael you bring up a song and i am renewed. I am so undeserving of him. Was it him who gave me the flowers anonymously and the note? why me? i am just a normal girl, a simple one at that. God, i can't seem to get over him. every time i do, a song, or a word, or his very name, comes to my mind and i smile, i laugh.....i still want that slap! lol <3 thank you for this wonderful gift you have bestowed upon me!