I pray that the Lord lighten my heart and help me understand the situation I am in right now. I have moved to care for my mother whom I never had a good relationship with. As a child she was verbally abusive, and could never find anything good about who I was. I left home at 15 and never went back. Now with her illness I feel obligated to care for her, which I moved my children to do so. Lord, please touch her heart to be a kinder person to her grandchildren as well as to myself. Help me not feel those old feelings of low self worth, not being good enough, that I may care for her without feeling like crying everyday. I believe in all loving and kindness to give love in all situations, please Lord I feel heaviness in my heart, an inner struggle with being a good daughter and wanting to escape her. Lord help me, this has taken a financial toll on my family, as well as emotional. I feel lost and alone in trying to be the daughter/ mother I want to be. I don't want anger in my heart! Thank you Lord for all my blessings!!