God, it hurts a lot - you know how much. I need Your help to make it too better for me ,,, ain't it time for that already after a year ,,, yeah both of them needs Your help God. A year is not long time to you God, but to me it is - you know what i've been true on this time - ain't it my time now. God please. May God bless you all ,who pray for me, whit easier life than i have lived this far.