Hello everyone I have been having a hard time in my life as sure you all are too or we might not be on here. I lost my way and am having troubles in my marriage . I'm moving out and into an apartment my wife needs space and wants to be friends after 30 years of marriage . I got married when I was 17 she was 18 . We have 2 grown kids and a grandson. I love my wife very much and I'm fighting very hard to save our relationship . Everyday I do at least 1 thing to show her I love her and want her and our marriage most days I do more then 1 thing . Its so hard not being able to hug or kiss her or hear her say love you. I've been sleeping alone for over a month now and we have had no intimate contact in over 4 months . I ask that everyone pray to save my marriage and also for me to be able to feel gods love I know god is always with us I just don't feel god with me and I'm afraid I 'm to stupid to hear gods messages to me . Please pray also that I can understand gods messages to me . I hate being alone and I miss my wife I have love around me from our kids and grandson but its not a wife's love that special love between husband and wife . I miss my wife sleeping next to me and waking everyday to her I miss just watching her sleep and I miss hearing her say I love you . I 'm lonely and broken and just cant seem to enjoy life at all . I try and tell myself like everyone around me says one day at a time but it don't seem to help me with my pain . Thank you all for your prayers it means so much to me to know others care for me I may never meet you who pray or even get a chance to talk to you so thank you for your prayers for me and my family and thank you for your belief in god and the power of prayer. My god bless you all in return.