Please help me. I need to open my heart to God and feel his presence. He is there I know that but I constantly push it away in my mind. I want to walk in Christ and be the person that I know that is inside of me. I am basically a greedy person. I put myself first and know that others are important too. I smoke cigarettes which I know is wrecking my health. I want to be a good woman in life and do for others as others have done for me. I know that if I ask for prayer it works. I have been there before and God has given me all I have ask for. I know that he cares and loves me. I do believe in him. He has walked with me all my life and I feel as tho I am disappointing him. I walk to be clean, healthy and a giving and loving woman. I feel like I have hardened my heart to the world. I am blessed by a beautiful family. My children are my life. There is nothing I wouldn't do for them. But I need to be more giving of others. Please pray that I can be a woman of God and not worldly things. I feel as tho God has been speaking to me but I don't know how to listen. I need him now. I need him to show me the way to be a good woman and live my life like he intended me to do. Thank you.