Please pray that I will be reconciled to my son so that I can spend time with my precious grand daughter and soon to arrive grandson! I feel I am being unjustly shunned due to the cursed chronic illness which affects my emotional and mental health as well as my physical health (and spiritual, of course). He's a Christian church-goer but says "I have to learn my lesson" but won't tell me what lesson I'm supposed to learn! I already learned NOT to take any more stupid meds that the Dr's keep trying on me as I've had so many adverse reactions! The last one made me feel suicidal, which was terrifying. I don't want to hurt my family in anyway, nor do I have the guts to hurt myself, but he doesn't think it's safe to let me babysit anymore! Being a gramma is the greatest joy in my life and wonderful therapy for the chronic depression I've had since childhood. I can't bear being separated from my loved ones!