Dear GOD,it's been 4 months now since his death.they say you never miss the water until it's gone.i used these words so many times and it's only just hit me what they really mean.i just keep thinking about the love we used to share and it's hard because no one understands what he meant to me.even he somehow didn't.i pretend that everything is OK and its not.they say everything happens for a reason,please give me the strength to understand....what I'm trying to say is that i miss him so terribly that i cry so hard sometimes when I'm alone.please tell him i love him and i'm sorry for all the pain i caused him...you said to cast all our worries unto you.i can't do this on my own.i need you comforter,i am dying deep down inside.i long for his smile,the sound of his voice.the look in his eyes i will never forget.GOD i could carry on and on because there is so much i long to say.my chest is filled with so much that it feels like its about to bust....help me LORD JESUS,IN JESUS NAME AMEN