Sometimes we make elaborate plans for ourselves; things we want do, places we want go and people we want to become. And when we experience a fall back from everything, we sometimes end up in a place where we don't know what to do anymore. That's where I am right now. It has been very difficult for me for the past 2 months, I feel like I've been battling life with everything I've got and now, I am nearing my end. I try to hold on to His words and promises but the pain is sometimes unbearable to the point that I can't even cry anymore. I feel like dying inside. This is not me, this is not who I want to be. So please, please, please...my brothers and sisters, pray for me. As I ran out of words to say to God, pray for me to find my way back and end this fight in victory.