I am completely lost and just not feeling like I even want to try anymore. My marriage has been in trouble for the last five years my husband had a 2 year affair plus numerous emotional affairs I am not perfect I can say I didn't physically have an affair but i did start seeing someone and after 2or3 dates I realized I could not continue. fast forward 3 years to today we both struggle with trust issues . I can not let his affair go and every-time I leave the house if I am gone longer than he thinks I should be it automatically goes back to me spending time with the person before.. I made a choice to save my marriage but I feel like I am the only one making the changes.. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME,FOR US BOTH.. I HAVE GIVE UP ON EVER BEING HAPPY AGAIN AND I HAVE LOST FAITH IN PRAYING CAUSE I HAVE NOT HEARD FROM GOD AND I FIGURE ITS BECAUSE HE IS DISAPPOINTED IN ME AND I REALLY NEED TO HEAR FROM HIM OR GUIDANCE I AM LOST AND DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO!!