Ok Looking at the future & all I see is trouble & hopelessness. I turn to my clergy & he wants me to go to the hospital, but all they want to do is drug me up. I don't like the drugs. They don't help. I need comfort from people. I need to be with people, not sitting at home with no one to talk to. I gave up my pets for Joe. I am lonely. I do pray, but feeling like there's no use & I'm wasting God's time.
It's a new year. Please help me pray into a new state. Somewhere where I can better serve our Lord God. Please, bring me to a state of repair where things fall into place & I stop hating myself. Please, dear God, forgive me.