With the loss of my wife some eleven years ago, and with that a very close sister, I had a widow friend call me, and as time went on I fell deeply in love with her, she at the start give me every reason to believe that she wanted a relationship for a long time. but changed her mind, and wanted me to step aside, as a friend, so she could go out with others to search for her past of which she said she missed out on, anyway it wasn't a good separation , mostly my fault I guess. I am just to deeply in love with her, Its been over a year or more, just cannot get her off my mind, in the middle of the night as well as every moment I am alone, Its really done a number on me, depressed etc. say two novenas every night and many other prayers, I feel God, has his hand on me and will not leave my side, just keep hurting and hurting, I am seventy four years old, I feel I should be able to handle this, just to emotional , I have been told those with big hearts hurt the most, May God always be with me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Thanks for your time.