It seems like I can't catch a break lately, I have been off work since November, because I could no longer do the job I was required to do, I am 62, so the doctor said no more lifting, I was let go because my job required me to lift at least 60 lbs. I have found other employment, but even though I have no criminal record other than speeding and a few dog violations, not having rabies shots and no dog license, I have never done anything else. But I have waited and waited on my background checks to come back and as of yet it has not happened. My 18 year old son who has never done anything is in jail, I am holding on by the skin of my teeth. I feel like I could lose it at any moment. I have 4 other children, who have helped me as much as possible, but even though they do it is not enough. I just want to work and take care of myself. I am tired and weary and wake up every morning with tears in my eyes. My mother is in a nursing home and I am her caregiver, I feel like th burden is too much. I cry everyday, I am sad everyday. I just want to feel good about myself again and right now I do not. Tired of praying and it seems like my prayers are not being answered.