Hello everyone, thank you for taking your time to read this. After loosing my closest cousin, I've been struggling with anxiety. Every night I have fear in my heart, and I know it is from the enemy. Please pray for me to be in fire for God and thirst for the word. Thank you .

Father, I pray that you give me strength lord. I feel broken and hurt. You said " the Lord is closest to the brokenhearted" where are you lord ? Why do I not feel your presence or feel you near me? I am broken and I surrender. God nothing in this world makes me happy. Nothing! I laugh and smile all day and at night I cry out to seek your face and feel nothing . I know that I shouldn't live with feelings instead have faith. But lord help me, I can't do this alone :(