I keep having crying spells. I am trying to get into Regent University and am already in school at 44 doing my best but my crying spells are getting in the way of my life. My finances are always an issue but God always makes it work. I want to quit smoking so bad that is my number one request. I am a new grandma and watch my granddaughter and don't want to keep changing clothes to keep smoke away from her. I just want this disgusting disease to end. Then my finances will be exactly where I need them and I can buy things for her. I wish they were against the law then I wouldn't think twice of giving them up. I am always so lonely when my granddaughter goes home and I want peace within myself to be ok being alone. I am a survivor of domestic violence and the devil keeps coming into my dreams and making me relive night after night. I know I am asking a lot of things but I do believe in the power of prayer and I thank you and I know God will bless you for praying for me. God bless and much love.