I am asking for prayer because I feel as though I am ready to throw in the towel. I have prayed and the pain just keep coming. I have gotten to the point I am scared to pray for fear this is what is causing the pain. I continually read watch what you pray for. Every since I was a small child I have felt alone,rejected,abandon,betrayed. I was put in foster care at a young age before I ever went to school. As a result I dont think I have ever felt love so in return I am not sure that I even know how to give love. I now have no friends my husband left on Thanksgiving day, my best friend betrayed me and I am trying to forgive like the bible tells us to but have not been able to do that yet. I read the Bible daily not that my heart is in it anymore but trying to be obedient. So I guess I have just started thinking maybe God hasnt called me maybe he has figure I am not worth it either. Not that I blame him, but I also read its not good for man to be alone and yet I feel like I have been all my life. I do have two daughters one son and 5 grandkids but all but one daughter and two grandkids live elsewhere. I read come to me all who are weary and I will give you rest. I have been trying. So please pray for me. I dont want to give up but I feel as though I am very close I have already started building the wall so as not to be hurt anymore