I need prayers so bad.. I've fallen so hard I've done many sins I cannot bare, I want to find Jesus again. I want to have Him in my heart I was brought up in a broken Christian home, I feel so angry inside, frightened and hopeless at times.. This really confuses me to be honest? I truly do not feel "saved" like, I know I was brought up in a Christian home to a certain extent but, that doesn't mean I am saved right? I want to be saved if I am not, I met this Christian boy a year ago and he's helped me through so much.. I feel like Jesus brought him into my life to find Him again.. Does that sound silly? I struggle with regret so much it eats me up alive along with addiction. I've started to pray again a few days ago and started to read the Bible again. I'm going to be committed but my addictions are really hard to avoid.. :(