I too am going through a very difficult path. I live and search for God, and I do not hear His voice. I have a very difficult relationship with the pastor, so I do not feel like going there. I try to live like a Christian, but sometimes I can offend people. My relationship with
God is unstable. There are people who pray against me so that I do not pray, because in prayer I destroyed their dark deeds, witchcraft. Therefore, we have a constant confrontation against each other. The church lives its own life, hardly
the pastor pray for me, although in our church there are only three people, except the pastor, his wife and daughter, and the members of the church only 4, including the pastor and his wife.