I am in a very dark place right now. My step dad is dying from stage 4 lung cancer. He is down almost 60lbs from this time last year. He has no appetite and is very tired and weak constantly. Hospice is coming out tomorrow to talk to us. My mother has COPD and is not much better. I am taking care of them. And that's great. But at same time I am miserable and battling my own health. I don't talk much to anyone about the severity of myself. Lately, watching what my step dad is going through is hitting me really hard. I lost my father to cancer 17 years ago. My daughters mom to cancer a year ago. And I am worried I got colon cancer myself. For the last couple years I have been drinking a lot! Daily. Multiples times in a day sometimes. Depends on how I am feeling or struggling. I cry all the time. Please pray for my family and myself. Please pray I can continue to have the strength to continue the care I am giving to my parents. And for a light at the end of my tunnel.
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Brad know real people are praying hard for you l. Do not give in to the pressure of this world. I challenge you to Give God any anger, pain, hurt you are keeping inside and give it all to him. Cry, yell whatever is deep inside do it and surrender your weakness, because once you do He will show you that he is your strength, your support and even turn things around for you. I can’t wait to hear your praise reports. Believe even when it’s dark!! That’s faith. Brad oh are freaking amazing if no one has told you today.
Give it and leave it all in HIS hands. Trust HIM to do for beyond anything we can ask or think!!!